Lost one,now twice

There's a famous saying that says "Losing friends are a part of growing up"Yes,but it also hurts.Alot.

  I understand how bitchy Rachel is,how her attitude sucks,how she don't deserves love and love.But it doesn't mean that she don't deserve respect and love from friends.People is spreading hate of her,terrible.Seeing people bullying her,or cyberbullying to be precise,it hurts me through my experiences.I've been pushed,beaten,tortured alot.I cried for my life.Nobody actually knows how it feels tbh.

  The story goes like this,this two girls,my ex-besties,lets just say Miy and Fra.Totally,I thought they would be a good friend forever but I noticed a thing.Fra and I are leos,so is my other friend.(Leo as in horoscope)and we crash together.Should avoid.As for Miy,she seem to bitch people alot and she likes people's misery.She likes cool people and hates uncool people.And I,am the uncool.Unfortunately,Rachel is in love with a boy so she goes against every girl close to him.Miy is close to you,literally.So she called Miy a bitch but I made them apologise.Sincere or not,the word heals many hearts but.
not mine.
 
  Eversince that incident,Fra spreaded about it in the class group and this is when hate started among our levels.One thing,I do not hate,just love,so I tried defending Rachel.Miy and Fra started picking on her whenever she speaks in class group,its like she don't belong there,so do I for protecting.Miy called me a wannabe grown up for defending her.Fra called me dumb,idiot,dumbest and all,but it didn't really matter.What mattered is how Rachel feels.She doesn't have a chance.The word "bitch" was a mistake from the past but these girls,they ruined her 2015.And mine.Now that I've lost both of them,I felt a little hurt,and regret.But the fact that I'd rather be lonely is true,alone everyday to reflect,insult self,play with self and leveling up my sadistic level.Being alone can also give me more.time to myself,no self-loving though.

  And this is what the bitch named Shi Wei said.She's 13,8 Aug to 14.A bitch,nerd,dumb,idiot and every bad thing��

A typical lie

Everyday I'd write on my whatsapp status about my true feelings,nobody would read it of course.They'd think...It's a joke or me faking as a wannabe depressed person.Tbh just no,depression is stupid and I am not getting involved.Im just radically sad.

I got myself involved in troubles with not being a proper girl.Oh god,what a burden I am.I grew to be strong,virtue in bravery.Just now,dad caned me for throwing everything around,it explains but sadly the thing is,he caned as hard as he could but it didn't hurt,I just faked to cry.Pretended.Im a liar,emotions and everything,I lie.What is pain?

Lately,I have this friend who seem depressed but she seem to be having fun with friends  around her instead.She seem to get bored of me and I can't stand it.Noir jealousy grew thorns in my heart.She even insulted me and my bias alot,but,it doesn't matter if she insult me.But this time,my heart seemed to be sensitive abt it.It seem to tell me that both me and that typical girl is selfish.Probably,yes.

Im a boring nerd and my jokes aint funny.I hate laughing and smiling and I aint depressed just sad often.Im in a way of life where bullying has not started yet.Abusements aint painful and that I must pursue to be stronger.I must push my limits till I cant take it and I will do it.Death will be my..
.

Best friend.

Useless

  Here we go again,my mom nagging at me.
  Why?You ask?Well guess who,my sister.She skipped lessons of her paid tuition giving me types of bullshit excuses such as "I need to pack my bag and water bottle for school" Well guess what bitch,you dont pack it everyday.Guess what,I'll be STRICT to you from now onwards.Idc what happen,I won't be sensitive but if you really throw attitude or piss me off,watch out.I'll be that bitch that you always call,and that one family member who doesn't love you anymore.
Sorry.

Work hard

  Now that I've failed most of my subjects (not most but its better now),I decided for my tired father/mother's sake,I will study really hard!
  Please support me,I will be seldomly posting.blogs lately nowadays btw!Good nights!