Everyday I'd write on my whatsapp status about my true feelings,nobody would read it of course.They'd think...It's a joke or me faking as a wannabe depressed person.Tbh just no,depression is stupid and I am not getting involved.Im just radically sad.
I got myself involved in troubles with not being a proper girl.Oh god,what a burden I am.I grew to be strong,virtue in bravery.Just now,dad caned me for throwing everything around,it explains but sadly the thing is,he caned as hard as he could but it didn't hurt,I just faked to cry.Pretended.Im a liar,emotions and everything,I lie.What is pain?
Lately,I have this friend who seem depressed but she seem to be having fun with friends around her instead.She seem to get bored of me and I can't stand it.Noir jealousy grew thorns in my heart.She even insulted me and my bias alot,but,it doesn't matter if she insult me.But this time,my heart seemed to be sensitive abt it.It seem to tell me that both me and that typical girl is selfish.Probably,yes.
Im a boring nerd and my jokes aint funny.I hate laughing and smiling and I aint depressed just sad often.Im in a way of life where bullying has not started yet.Abusements aint painful and that I must pursue to be stronger.I must push my limits till I cant take it and I will do it.Death will be my..
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Best friend.
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